Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Seeing how I have changed!!

Ok so I was looking through my old notes on facebook and since they are mostly survey things I wanted to see how I have changed since I posted!!
Originally posted on November 7, 2009, I am putting today's answers beside original answer

A - Age: 27 ~ 29

B - Bed size: queen ~ queen

C - Chore you hate: dishes ~ dishes

D - Dog's name: dixie,prissy,rossie ~rossie, hera, and zoey. I still have prissy but she lives with my parents its a better fit for her

E - Essential start your day item: brushed teeth ~  a fountain pop and brushed teeth

F - Favorite color(s): yellow ~ yellow

G - Gold or Silver: Silver ~ Silver

H - Height: 5'4~ 5'4

I - Instruments you play(ed): clarinet~ clarinet

J - Job title: Mommy, wife, babysitter ~ same

K - Kid(s): 3 ~ 3 by birth and 1 beautiful step daughter

L - Living arrangements: house~ house

M - Mom's name: Beth~ Beth

N - Nicknames: Mommy~ mommy, mom, stace,

O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: hysterectomy, appendix, and one time before my hysterectomy when they found a mass in my intestines which ended up being a tumor in my uterus ugh, births of my children, and heart issues

P - Pet Peeve:too many, mouth noises and people who think they are better than everyone~ same as before and people chewing with mouth open

Q - Quote from a movie: not sure~ not sure

R - Right or left handed: Left~ Left

S - Siblings: 1 sister ~ 1 sister

T - Time you wake up: 7 ~ 4:30 and then again at 6;30

U- Underwear: yes thank you~ SAME AS BEFORE

V - Vegetable you dislike: idk~ onions now that I found out I am allergic

W - Ways you run late: kids not getting ready~ oversleeping

X - X-rays you've had: lots ~ alot

Y - Yummy food you make: chillis~ potato soup

Z - Zoo favorite: bear~ zebra





This one was posted July 31, 2009. Two days following my hysterectomy
1. What time did you get up this morning? 10 am~ 6:30am

2. How do you like your steak? well done~ same

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? bedtime stories ~ ummm dont remember

4. What is your favorite TV show? depends~ Secret Life

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? i am good~ Out west

6. What did you have for breakfast? cheerios~ Burger King,

7. What is your favorite cuisine? mexican ~ Mexican

8. What foods do you dislike? turkey pepperoni just had it yesterday its gross~ turkey pepperoni not too picky

9. Favorite Places to Eat? El Chiles or Gas Grill~ El Chiles

10. Favorite dressing? ranch ~ ranch

11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? dodge caravan~ a van I dont like

12. What are your favorite clothes? pj's~ lounge pants

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? Hawaii~ Hawaii

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? full :) ~ full

15. Where would you want to retire? no clue~ hawaii

16. Favorite time of day? evening when we are relaxing at home~ evenings

17. Where were you born? New Castle~ New Castle

18. What is your favorite sport to watch? depends on my mood and what the kids are doing~ football

19. Who do you think will not tag you back? dont know~ doesnt matter

20. Person you expect to tag you back first? not sure~ doesnt matter

21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? everyone~ doesnt matter

22. Bird watcher? sometimes~ sometimes

23. Are you a morning person or a night person? both ~ depends

24. Do you have any pets? 4 dogs~ 3 dogs and a cat

25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? I am sooooo glad my surgery is over~ jared did well yesterday

26. What did you want to be when you were little? teacher~ teacher

27. What is your best childhood memory? being with my family~ family time

28. Are you a cat or dog person? dog ~ dog i guess

29. Are you married? yes~ yes

30. Always wear your seat belt? yes well most of the time I refused to yesterday but had a good reason~ yes

31. Been in a car accident? yes~yes

32. Any pet peeves? yes, oh yes... ~ yes

33. Favorite Pizza Toppings? royal feast~ sausage, bacon, mushroom

35. Favorite ice cream? moose tracks~ moose tracks

36. Favorite fast food restaurant? Arbys~ Rallys

37. How many times did you fail your driver's test? none~ none

38. From whom did you get your last email? facebook~ not sure

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? no where~ Cato

40. Do anything spontaneous lately? no~ no

41. Like your job?yes~ yes

42. Broccoli? sounds good right now~ love it

43. What was your favorite vacation? Florida~ gatlinburg

44. Last person you went out to dinner with? shane~ my family

45. What are you listening to right now? my mom~ tv

46. What is your favorite color? yellow~ yellow

47. How many tattoos do you have? none~ none
48. How many are you tagging for this quiz? probubly no one~ doesnt matter
49. What time is it: 1:17pm~ 1:26pm

50. Coffee Drinker? no~ no



This was posted June 13 2009
Copy & paste the survey, fill it in with your answers (finish the sentences) and tag all the friends you wanna know stuff about including the person who tagged you!


1. I have come to realize that my butt: is mine~ is there
2. I have come to realize that when I talk: someone is listening......... I hope~ that it needs to be positive

3. I have come to realize that, if I love someone: I give them my all~ I pray they love me back

4. I have come to realize that, I need: my family and friends to get through what i am going through at the moment~ I need God all the time

5. I have come to realize that, I lost: some good ppl in my life along the way~ alot of things

6. I have come to realize that, I hate it when: my house is messy~ my house is messy

7. I have come to realize that, if I’m drunk: it doesnt help the situation~ I am in big trouble

8. I have come to realize that, marriage: is a give and take relationship~ can be hard at times

9. I have come to realize that, work: is not only a paid job~ is more than a paid job

10. I have come to realize that, I will: feel alot better soon~ get things done

11. I have come to realize that, I like: to spend time with my kids~ alot of things

12. I have come to realize that, the last time: I went to the hospital I realized that I need to take more time for myself~ I ate made me feel horribe

13. I have come to realize that, my cell phone is: in my pocket~ is pink

14. I have come to realize that, when I wake up in the morning: I need more sleep~ I have to get 5 kids out the door

15. I have come to realize that, before I go to sleep at night: I tell my family I love them~ I pray

16. I have come to realize that, right now I am thinking about: when my daughters will be home I miss them~ feeling better

17. I have come to realize that, babies: are a gift from God~ are a gift from God
18. I have come to realize that, when I get on Facebook: it gets addicting~ I can connect to people I haven't seen in a long time

19. I have come to realize that, today I will: get my washer back~ clean

20. I have come to realize that, tonight I will: spend time with my kids~ spend time with my kiddos

21. I have come to realize that, tomorrow I will: go to church and praise God~ go to Jalen's football game

22. I have come to realize that, I really want to: get well~ go on vacation

23. I have come to realize that, working out: is going to have to be a must in my life~ I need to get back on a routine

24. I have come to realize that, friends: are something I need~ are always there

25. I have come to realize that, the person who might repost this is: hmmm not sure...~ it doesn't matter



Ok I am bored with this!!! I will do more later




Thursday, August 25, 2011

Pondering life circumstances

Eight years ago I was scheduled to have my tubes tied after Jared was born. I had to wait to have it done due to insurance procedure so I couldn't have it done while in surgery when Jared was born. I had to wait so many weeks after Jared's birth. Well during that time I really prayed about this decision and the Lord told me not to do it. So I cancelled my surgery. I then felt after prayer I was going to have another child.

A couple years later I had two miscarriages. This was a very trying time in my life not understanding the reasons why this was happening. At this time I was ready for another child but it wasn't His timing. This was so difficult to understand.

Then I was having major problems with my cycle. I had a lot of pain and heavy cycles. I made an appointment to see my doctor and he was like you have some fibriod tumors but since I was so young he said he wasn't going to do anything about them and I should be fine. Well the whole issue went on for a couple years and it got really bad to the point I wouldn't leave home during the week every month.

March of 2009, I thought I was just starting my cycle on spring break. Well that cycle never ended or what I thought was a cycle. I went to ER a couple times because I was very week and in a lot of pain. One of the ER visits they found a mass but they said it was in my intestines. So that was very scary!!! Thankfully I had friends supporting me and telling me I need answers. One friend gave me the number to the doctor that did her hysterectomy. Well we called him and at the time I had no insurance so he wouldn't see me but his office gave me a number of another doctor. So we called Dr. Lugo and he would see me. This is in late June of 2009. He did an ultrasound in his office and said that I had multiple fibriod tumors in my uterus and one had actually grew through my uterine wall and it was very large. He said there was no way of saving my uterus and that I would need surgery to remove the uterus and tumors. This is what was causing my bleeding. He told me my body was producing 10 units of blood daily and I was probubly losing 8 units daily. No wonder I was feeling horrible.

So now I was really confused to why I wasn't to have the surgery in 2003. I was devastated that I was not going to be able to have another child. But I serve an amazing Lord who knows why this happened.

July 29, 2009, Shane drove me to St. Johns in Anderson to have my surgery. This day was a relief in a sense and a sad day also.  But I serve an Awesome God and he would see me through all of my trials. But after surgery I began to grieve and ask why a lot. I still have days I don't understand and it is overwhelming to not know what good came out of this. I still want another child. People say to me well if God wants you to have another child He will make it possible. Which I know is true but its hard to see this. But I know now that there is a way that when the tumors were found that they could have been taken care of and I could have had a chance of having another child. I just don't understand.

I am also thankful for the children I do have and they are a blessing from God!!!





Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Come to Me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28

I am to a point that I am so weary and tired. I have lived with a broken heart for awhile now. My heart hurts and I am tired. My joy is gone. I hate living like this and I don't what to do. I love my Lord with all my heart and I know this is a test of my faith. My faith has been criticized a lot lately. I am human I fall but I get back up. I need so much and I feel so alone. I just need to rest in my Saviors arms.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

New Week!!!

I have had so much anxiety lately. Maybe it is because I am trying to get back into the swing of things with babysitting full time again, school being back in session and so on. But I think a lot of it has to do with personal issues and other things life threw my way. I have been really sick lately and its really bringing me down. I am dealing with a new allergy to onions of all things. Well it seems everything has onions or onion powder in it. This is extremely hard to deal with. Today I found out that spaghetti sauce has onions in it. I love spaghetti.

I know there are huge mountains in the coming week but I am putting all my trust in HIM who is my Comforter and Peace Speaker to see me through and help me through each situation that is coming my way. He is my All and All. I know He will see me through life's circumstances.

Today has been a hard day for Jared. He was sitting in church having chest pains.This is very scary for a parent because I don't know what to do. He has a deformed chest and the cardiologist said he may have pain from it when he grows but it could also cause pain if it doesn't grow out and there isn't enough space. So we have been watching him today and having him rest as much as possible. If he isn't feeling better tomorrow we will call the doctor and go from there. That is unless things get worse tonight we will head to the ER.

Today we celebrated Jalen's 13th with my parents, grandparents, sister, Shane, Lis, Bradley, Jalen, Maddy, and Jared. We had a good dinner and I think he had a good birthday. His sister and Bradley really made it awesome by getting him a new purdue shirt and water bottle. Then Jalen and Bradley went to Walmart and got ammo for Jalens gun. Bradley just transferred to Purdue so we will get to see him more. He is a great guy and not only does he treat Lis good he is good to her family. I am so thankful for him being in our lives. Lis starts her second year at Purdue tomorrow!!!!! I really can't believe this because it seems like just yesterday we were celebrating her 13th birthday!!

I am so thankful for all the positives in our lives right now but there is a lot that I pray God moves in!! But its not Stacy's timing its His timing. So I will continue to pray and trust in Him through all the storms.

I was sure by now 
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I'm with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

Chorus:
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I'm with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The maker of Heaven and Earth


Tuesday, August 16, 2011

First day of school 2011!!!!

The first day of school for 2011 is one for the history books!!!! We had a great morning none of the 5 children fought about getting up and getting ready!! They were fed, dressed, three girls with fixed hair, 5 kids with brushed teeth, and lunches in tow were out the door at 7:20am!!!! They all stood under the tree for the annual first day of school picture. Off to the two schools to drop off the kids and no tears or attitude!!! That is a success!!

This was the first year all 5 were in school all day and it was soooooooooooo weird to come home to an empty house. So I tried to take a nap and it didn't work so well. But it was nice to just be home and not have to watch Sponge Bob or I carly or anything. There wasn't 4 tv's on and the kids weren't fighting over the computer!!! But I will tell you I missed them soooo much.

2:30pm rolled around and I was so ready to head to Westwood and get the girls and off to Tri to get Jared and Maddy. Well we came up on 100 S. to the school and there was a huge line.............. Well  we didnt end up in the parking lot till after 3......... Not good when I needed to be 10 miles south at Tri at that time...... So I call my mom and was like this is so crazy and Jareds going to hate me. She then says have you thought about calling your dad he is at grandma and grandpas.... Two minutes from Tri!!!!! What was I thinking why didn't I think of that......... Well dad went to get the kids and Jared didn't hate me!!!!

I am so glad they all had an awesome day and everyone adjusted well to the new schedule and I am blessed!!!!
 

I am hoping tomorrow is just as good!!!!!








Monday, August 8, 2011

Hello Monday!!!!

Well I am pretty sure everyone's prayers worked!!! I have felt so much better today!!!! I have gotten a lot done and feeling pretty good about it!! I am trying to get so much done before the kids go back to school. I am so excited the girls are coming back tomorrow. The girls are Jasmin and Elise. I have babysat them for 5 years and they are very special to me. Their mom Staci broke her foot at the beginning of the summer so she hasn't been able to work so they have had their summer with their mom and I have had the summer with my kids. Its been really weird not having them around. Staci has an appointment tomorrow so they will be here in the afternoon for a while then they come back full time Thursday!!!

Another new normal in our family is volleyball Monday!!!! We play volleyball with the LDS Elders on their P day!!! They have become like family to us. Today was transfer calls and I was worried they were going to get transferred BUT they didn't!!!! Today Lis was able to join us for the game which was awesome!!! Elder Wood and Elder Wilson are great guys and both have a special place in my heart. There was another one here before Elder Wood and he was awesome to and I love him very much!!! I miss him but I know their is a plan. I am so blessed to know them!!! So we have one Monday left before school starts so not sure what will happen after next week with our volleyball monday.

Jalen had his first football practice for the 7th grade team. He said all they did was sit in the locker room. He was talking about the drum corp that is practicing at Tri!!! He was like one guy drove all the way from Washington. It was funny the way he was talking about them.

I have some major mountains I am praying about right now!!!! I know God will take care of our family but its so hard when you are at the foot of the mountain.






Sunday, August 7, 2011

Tired!

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest" Matthew 11:28

I have been dealing with some kind of sickness or bug for 5 days now. I don't know what is going on but I just don't feel good. I am hoping just staying on the couch today and not doing anything will help. I keep looking around thinking this needs to be done or that needs to be done. I just got to keep telling myself it will be here tomorrow. I hate missing church today but I need to rest. I have been on the go all week and that hasn't helped the situation of being sick. 

Yesterday was the second Saturday of Miracle League! I love this league so much and I have learned so much just from being involved. My kids love it and they are learning life lessons. It is truly a miracle to see each game. The players are so excited each game. 

School starts soon for the kids!! This week has been very trying for all of us. I think alot has to do with me not feeling well. Jared will be in 3rd grade... Wow it feels like it was just yesterday I was sitting by his crib in the NICU. He is my Miracle baby and I thank God for him each day. He has taught me so much in life. And his life has truly taught me how to put all my trust in God. From the day after he was born and he was whisked away from my arms to an ambulance to be transported 45 minutes away to an Indianapolis hospital with his dad following behind him. To the doctors telling Shane he wouldn't make it through the night that same day. All the while I lay in a hospital bed in New Castle fighting my own battle to get my blood pressure down. He has caused many scares in his 8 years of life from choking on a quarter, getting his finger almost cut off in a bike chain and Staci and I having to call the paramedics because we couldn't do anything to get it out and they get there and search for tools on my dads tool bench, him diving off the top bunk of his Jalen's bunk beds and we were thinking he broke his neck and actually he broke his arm. The last one was when the school called this year and told me I needed to come pick him up because he needed to go to the hospital because he fell off the top of the slide at recess......... I love that kid. 

Jalen will be 13 this month. I cant believe this at all. It feels like it was just yesterday I was that pregnant 16 year old lost in this crazy world dealing with adult decisions as a child myself. Living a very crazy life. BUT I am survivor and I love Jalen and I am so proud of the young man he has become. He loves God and he loves helping others. He is just like his momma. He starts football for the 7th grade team tomorrow. I know he will do awesome in Junior High.

Maddy is going to be a 6th grader!!!! She is as tall as me and I am not sure when this happened. I am so proud of all she is doing in life. She has a project at the state fair!!!!!! She puts 100% in all she does!!! She will do amazing things!!!

This will be Lis' second year at Purdue!!!! I am so proud of her. It feels like it was just yesterday she came into my life!!! She will also do amazing things in her life. 

This week is going to be devoted to getting back into a routine and getting organized for school to start!! Oh and the girls come back this week to and we have missed them alot. So I am heading back to the couch and resting!!!!