Thursday, September 22, 2011

Life is full of twists!

Ok, if I make it through this blog I without crying it will be a pure miracle. Ok, so the elder missionaries from The  Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints have visited our house for a while now. Well the first couple of guys I liked but not well enough to get close to or maybe our personalities didn't mesh. Well the first transfer, one left and another came. After first I didn't like Elder Wilson. Haha he was a little ummm I don't even know how to describe him. Ha well how I tell people that Elder Wilson is Jared in 10 years. But I kinda LOVE him to death now!!! Haha 6 months later. He is such a blessing to me. Well the next transfer came around and  the other guy from the first pair left and Elder Pahl came :) He and I clicked!! I love him so much but he went home and I still communicate with him some. Then for a week Elder Doxey came to fill in for transfers. Elder Doxey is a very sweet and laid back guy. He is an amazing witness for Heavenly Father. He at transfers and went to Ball State. Our family was told on Monday that he was leaving for Ball State and that the new Elder was brand new and would be coming straight from the airport to New Castle. I was like ok I wonder how this will go.
Well let me tell you the day Elder Wood walked into my home I knew he was an amazing guy!! He was so easy to talk to. We have laughed and cried together, agreed and disagreed with each other, had fun and got serious together! I am so thankful for the time we had together. He has taught me so much as a person. He taught me I could bring down the walls I have built up from years of hurt. I am so blessed to say I know Daniel Wood!! Or family will be forever changed by his example.
He has brought a special girl into my life Hailey that I feel like I have known forever. She and I can talk like I can't with others!! She is sweet and such a blessing to me. She has helped me this week so much with his leaving. She has been there. Her situation may be a little harder but she has been so supportive. Thank You Hailey!! I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So Sunday evening we went to a fireside in Muncie with the Elders. Elder Wilson had taken my camera home on Saturday to charge it for me since I had lost my camera. Well we were all in the car and I turned my camera on and there was the two sweet pictures on it of each of them!! I love it and it will be pictures I cherish forever. (So I knew I wouldn't make it through this blog without crying because I can barely see to type right now). So discussion turned to the transfer calls they would be getting in the morning. We were all joking around about where they would be sent. Deep down I was praying that neither would leave. We had such a good evening with them Sunday! I am so thankful for that good evening to remember forever.
Monday morning at 6:43am I got the text saying " Elder Wood is leaving New Castle for reals". Wow I bawled immediately. Wow that is when the emotional roller coaster began...... The next thing Elder Wood said to me was this will not be goodbye forever. That has been a source of strength for me as of late.
I have cried more tears than I thought was possible the last four days. I have cried looking over texts he sent me especially the one that says "So basically I am dreading saying goodbye to your family". Breaks my heart!!
" I have learned that people will forget what said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel" I sent this quote to him because it is sooo true. He kept saying we will take lots of sweet pictures. They came over Monday evening and we spent time together laughing without sadness and tears that was for later. Oh and we took sweet pictures that night!!
Tuesday, came and Tuesday was good bye day. I wrote a pretty sweet note to him and put it in a card for him and cried while I did so. Lots of tears were shed all day by me that day. I texted to make sure he knew I was praying for him because I know that we werent the only ones he was saying good bye too. He told me it was hard. I just cried for him
The time came for him to come over and say our goodbyes. Maddy comes out of her room with a card and a bracelet she made him. He comes over and thankfully no tears were shed for the majority of his visit. We took a lot of pictures our lovely photographer Elder Wilson was amazing. Then it was time for him to bear his testimony. Tear began to fall and didn't stop.  We said our "See ya later's" and he left. I had a message from Elder Wilsons mom and I texted it to him since there was no way I could tell him face to face. I cried doing so and he texted back and gave me a message for her. He then told me I could make him cry like no other person and he was thankful for me.I told him I would love him forever and he told me like wise.
Wednesday morning was the day of his leaving at this time he didn't know where he would be going to he was in Indianapolis. I texted them to tell them to have a safe trip and i loved him. The last thing he said to me was thank you and I will love you forever!! A couple hours later I get a text saying who the new elder was and of course I asked where Elder Wood went. Warsaw Indiana, well I know nothing about Warsaw Indiana. So to Mapquest I go. Warsaw is 2 and a half hours from New Castle and approx. 120 miles away......... That was hard to comprehend why couldn't he go somewhere like Ball State or Richmond????? But that wasn't Gods will for him. So let the letters begin. According to Hailey's Blog he will be home in 629 days!! Home is Idaho. But he will be visiting Indiana! And Hailey is coming too!!!
Ok so I know that the Missionaries can get alot of haters and it drives me crazy!!!! Do you realize what they do? Well let me tell you!! They leave their families when they are between the  ages of 19 and 21. They are then told they don't get to pick where they will serve their mission. And it isn't limited to the United States, its world wide. They pack their stuff say goodbye to their families. When I say goodbye they do not get to take a cell phone, they don't have facebook at all or other social networking sites to communicate with their families. They go to the MTC to train for a time then they are put on a plane and sent to where ever they are called to go. As in Elder Wood's case he was called to Indiana. They are then matched to be companions with someone they do not know!! They live together and spend all 24 hours together!! Could you imagine??? All the while they do not have tv or anything to occupy them other then studying, praying, and reading scriptures. They do not have alot of money and they only have a car every other week. The other week they are on bikes or foot and they do this in rain, snow, cold and hot weather. They spread the Word. They are only able to check email and write letters on Monday's. Oh that is the only way the can communicate with family and friends. They hope families in the church provide them meals. But that isn't always a promise. Could you do this??? I am a mom and I don't know if I could let one of my kids do this but you know I will support them if they decide to do it. With that being said instead of judging these guys when you see them out, oh and girls go on missions too, pray for them, uplift them, say positive things to them, and just be nice to them. I don't know how many times they have walked in and said a person said this or a person said that. Ugh it drives me crazy. Maybe people need to go back to the say "If you don't have anything good to say don't say anything at all" Sad thing is a lot of  SO CALLED CHRISTIANS ARE THE BIGGEST OFFENDERS. If I just offended you maybe you should get on your knees and sincerely pray!! As I will be doing as I finish this blog!
As for Elder Wood! When he was in the car leaving New Castle a piece of my heart went with him! I will love him forever and always! He will be forever in my prayers. I will see him soon and hear from him often. He changed my life and I am so grateful! He will do great things in Warsaw and his other assignments of the next 629 days!! Oh and for Elder Wilson I will probably boohoo and cry as much as I have for Elder Wood and I promise you I will have a blog dedicated just for him!! Just hopefully not in 6 weeks :)

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

more facebook notes

Another round of notes from facebook May 15,2009
100 Truths! After you've filled this out, tag 15 people and have them do the same.

1. Last beverage→ water, propel
2. Last phone call→ mom, staci
3. Last text message→ Danny, stacy
4. Last song you listened to→ God of Wonders my hubby rocks that song but I havent heard him sing in a very, dirt road anthiem
5. Last time you cried→ yesterday, yesterday

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice → yea, yes
2. Been cheated on? yep, yes
3. Kissed someone & regretted it? no, probably
4. Lost someone special? yes, yes
5. Been depressed?→ yes, yes
6. Been drunk and threw up? nope, no

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS
1. yellow
2. purple
3. pink
4. red

ABOUT YOU:
1. Made new friends → yes, yes
2. Fallen out of love → yes, yes
3. Laughed until you cried → yes, yes
4. Met someone who changed you → yes, yes
5. Found out who your true friends were → yes , yes
6. Found out someone was talking about you → yes, yes
7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ yes, yes
8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life → all of them, most of them
9. How many kids do you want to have→ 4 is good for us, I would love to have about 3 more
10. Do you have any pets → 4 dogs, 3 dogs and 1 cat
11. Do you want to change your name → no, no
12. What did you do for your last birthday→ surprise party but was hurt really bad that day, dinner at Tommies
13. What time did you wake up today → 7:15,7:00
14. What were you doing at midnight last night → sleeping, sleeping
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → tonight, being able to walk
16. Last time you saw your father→ not sure sunday maybe, 1/2 hour ago
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → more organized, orgranized
18. What are you listening to right now → news, the fan
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom yes, yes
23. What's getting on your nerves right now? → not being motivated, not being able to do anything
24. Most visited webpage → facebook, cafemom, myspace, .... face book, cafemom, hotmail

1. What's your name→ stacy
2. Nicknames→ mommy, stac
5. Male or female→ female
6-9 are missing
10. Hair color → brown
11. Long or short → short
16. Height → 5'4
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → of course. hmmmm
18: What do you like about yourself? → i am flexible on things, love for God
19. Piercings → no
20. Tattoos → not yet
21. Righty or lefty → lefty

FIRSTS :
22. First surgery → c-section
23. First piercing → ears
24. First best friends --> Staci way back at Riley
26. First sport you joined → soccer
27. First pet → dont know
28. First vacation→ FL
29. First concert → couldn't tell ya, haven't been to a whole lot, Steven Curtis Chapman
30. First crush → not really sure

RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating → nothing
50. Drinking → water, propel
52. I'm about to → fold laundry, lay down
53. Listening to → the tv, fan
55. Waiting for → Prom tomorrow I cant wait to see Lis in this dress and what Ashley can do with her hair, being able to walk

YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? → I am good with what I have been blessed with , If God allows it
59. Want to get married? → already am! , been there done that,,
60. Careers in mind? → not sure, EMT

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
68. Lips or eyes → eyes
69. Hugs or kisses → hugs
70. Shorter or taller → Definitely taller
71. Older or Younger → Definitely older
72. Romantic or spontaneous → both!?
73. Nice stomach or nice Butt→ doesnt matter
74. Sensitive or loud → sensitive
75. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
77. Trouble maker or hesitant → hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER...
78. Kissed a stranger → maybe
79. Drank hard liquor → yep
80. Lost glasses/contacts → yep
81. Sex on first date → no
82. Broken someone's heart → probubly
83. Had your own heart broken → yes
85. Been arrested → no
86. Turned someone down → yes
87. Cried when someone died → yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → nope
Another
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → most of the time, sometimes
90. Miracles → Yes, yes have you met Jared??
91. love at first sight → no
92. Heaven → Yes
93. Santa Clause → no
95. Kiss on the first date? → depends
96. Angels → yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? no
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? no
99. Love somone right now? Yes
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? yes




Sunday, September 11, 2011

What I have learned from thursday

Well Thursday what a day!!! It was like any other day until I was walking out to go to Tri's PTO meeting. My friend Cindy sent my a facebook message and said PTO tonight you going and I responded yea putting my shoes on. Most any other time I leave the house I would have just slipped my flip flops on and head out but for some reason I put my tennis shoes on. I told my family by and out the door I went. Well I have no clue how but I fell down the 6 cement steps in front of my house. I landed just as a car pulled up and asked if I was ok and I firmly said no. So she parked and came over to where I was sitting. She was like how can I help and I was like I need someone out of the house. Shen then tells me I can't go out there, I am afraid of cats and there is a cat up there. Well I am so thankful I had my phone and it was in my purse. If I would have been carrying it, it would have been broken. I had money and my keys in my hand and it landed a ways away from me. I called Shane but it took a minute to actually get him on the phone since I was in shock and couldn't get him at first. So he came out and as soon as he came out he called the ambulance since my leg just didnt look right. Well if felt like years before they got to the house. It was horrible. So anyway after a pain shot and xrays it was determined that nothing was broke but my knee was dislocated, my ankle severely sprained, and a shoulder sprain. I have a pretty deep abrasion on my other knee. And plenty of sore other body parts. I am still in alot of pain. Meds are not really helping so sleep has been my friend. It takes soo much effort to move to the bathroom then back to me my bed. I am so worn out just from that simple task. I feel so helpless and I hate depending on others. I am thankful for the ones that have brought meals over and came to pray for me. I am thankful for my friend Corey coming over to keep me company. I feel like I am in for a long recovery and it is going to take time to heal. But I am thankful for my Father in Heaven that has guided me through every step. I am thankful for his comfort when I feel alone and my friends are million miles away.

10 years

1 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. 2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change, though the mountains shake in the heart of the sea; 3 though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble with its tumult. (Selah) 4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy habitation of the Most High. 5 God is in the midst of the city; it shall not be moved; God will help it when the morning dawns. 6 The nations are in an uproar, the kingdoms totter; he utters his voice, the earth melts. 7 The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. (Selah) 8 Come, behold the works of the Lord; see what desolations he has brought on the earth. 9 He makes wars cease to the end of the earth; he breaks the bow, and shatters the spear; he burns the shields with fire. 10 "Be still, and know that I am God! I am exalted among the nations, I am exalted in the earth." 11 The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. (Selah) Psalm 46
10 years have passed and the sadness of this day is still great. I was 19 when my nation was attacked and many live needlessly lost. That day will forever be etched in my mind. I was a single mom, a student, and had a full time job. I remember waking up that morning to get ready for school. I was the only one home at the time. I turned the tv on while readying myself for class. I watched everything unfold by myself in my room by myself. I remember going to school driving down 3 and everything seemed soo still and in mourning. There were no planes in the sky and everything seemed in slow motion. When I reached school  class was cancelled so I came back to town and picked the kids up from daycare and spent the rest of the afternoon watching the events on tv. I then slept and woke up before work that night and the nightmare was still unfolding. I went to work at Arbys and it was a mad house next door at Swifty. Police were directing traffic because gas prices soared. It was so surreal. 


Ten years later the impact of this event is still heavy. My heart is heavy for all the ones who lost a loved one that day. May God bless them and the USA